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Last night at our virtues parenting class, led by my mom, we went over different parenting discipline styles. It became very clear to me that I was raised in a “small box” style of discipline with strict, rigid rules and a lot of control. It cause me to rebel, sneak around a lot and develop a lot of guilt. Well, this also made me realize that I am unconsciously parenting in this exact same style and my daughter is – rightly so – rebelling and trying to break out of the little box. I still don’t fully understand this, so I realized I have to read up more about it in the Family Virtues Guide.
This is a watercolor self portrait of me in a little box. Actually, it’s from a photo that I took when I was getting my root canal done recently, which in turn spurred this whole emotional healing time of my issues from when I was 10 and 11 years old.
When I finished painting it, my dad commented that, “Frida would be proud.” As in Frida Kahlo who painted herself over and over, in a “non-beautiful” way. This was in fact what I was aware of while painting. I wanted to overemphasis the “non-beautiful” parts, but then love them anyways, because they’re me. So as I painted, I repeated in my head “I love and approve of myself” quite a lot.
